BROKEN

I tried to fly High in the sky,

Then I realised my wings were cut.

I tried to run on the land,

Then I realised there is no way to run.

I tried shout with all voices I had,

Then I realised I don't have a voice anymore.

I tried to love with my whole heart

Then I realised my heart has already stopped.

I tried to cry louder then anytime,

Then I realised my emotions and tears are already dried.

I tried feel the touch of love,

Then I realised that sadness has already taken over me.

I tried to be happy,

Then I realised happiness has cost.

I tried to smile,

Then I realised smile can cost your happiness.

I wished to live my life on my own terms,

Then I realised that my life already belong to someone else.

I

DESPERATE DESIRE

I tried to share every piece of me,
Through every word I write,
But found no one to understand them.

I tried to match my rythm of life,
Through every step I walk,
But found no one to match with them.

I tried to survive with every stop,
By hoping that someone will save me,
But found no one who can save me.

I tried not to fall while walking,
By hoping that someone will hold me,
But found no one who can hold me.

I tried not to cry,
By being happy all the time,
But found no one who can see tears, behind those happy eyes.

I tried not to look sad,
By putting smile on my face everyday,
But found no one to see sadness behind those smiles.

I tried to feel lonely,
By putting myself in between big crowd,
But found no one who can accept me the way I want.

I tried to feel being loved,
By being with people I love,
But found no one who can love me.

KIM NAMJOON

You came to my life,
And enlighten my life,
With big hope.

You are Ray of hope,
You are new sun for Army,
You are humble,
You are kind.

You are a person,
Who teaches others,
Not to give up no matter,
How hard it is.

You are a person,
Who teaches others,
How to fall in love with ourselves.

You are a person,
Whom Armys look for,
When they are in pain.

You are one of the best leader,
Who always stand and support his family and friends.
You are a person,
Who give love to others unconditionally.

You are a reason,
I learned to love myself.
I know now there is someone,
Someone out there who is healing my pain,.

Thank you for being born,
Thank you for forming BTS,
Thank you for never giving up,
Thank you for existing.

Happy birthday KIM NAMJOON
May you fly more higher and higher and sky touches your feet.

BTS

When I see you,
You make my HEART FLUTTER,
Your nature makes me,
Fall in love love with you every second.

Your music gives me happiness,
Your story gives me strength,
Your words give me hope,
Your smile makes makes my heart calm.

You came to my life,
When i was in verge of giving up,
It was like,
You held my hand,
And bought me out of the hell.

Now everytime i think of giving up,
Your song BORN SINGER rings in my ear,
It tells me how hard work,
Can make your dream come true.

You taught me how to dream,
Because of you i got a family,
A big family called ARMY,
Because of you now,
I am never alone.

Everytime i see you,
You motivates me to work more harder,
You motivates me to keep moving,
You motivates me to never give up.

Thank you for saving me,
Thank you for motivating me,
You are my first thought in the morning,
You are my last word at the night,
And this you is only and only BTS

SAVE ME

Every step which I take,
Makes me feel how hard it can be,
To move forward with smile on face.
But still I keep moving forward,
Trying to overcome all hurdles which I face.

Pain in my heart,
Keep on increasing with every step.
More I move forward,
More it becomes hard to fight.

I keep on searching for someone,
Who can hold me tight,
Who can help me to pass all hurdles,
One who can save me from all pain.

I try to hold everything inside me,
But now it's becoming hard to hold,
More I try hold, more painful it become,
Please save me, save me from more sufferings.

I don't know anymore,
How long I will be able to hold that pain.
I don't know anymore,
How long I will be able to walk.
I don't know anymore,
How long I can survive.
I don't know,
Will my saver will ever come to save me.

The faith and trust inside me,
The believe and love Inside me,
Is vanishing with each step I am taking,
I wish somebody can help me get that lost things back.

I want to run to place,
Were I can shout to my heart out.
I want to run to a place,
Were I can cry my heart out.
I want to run to place ,
Were someone can hug me
And say EVERYTHING IS FINE.
YOU ARE SAFE......

INSPIRATION

When I first I came to know you,
It was just just very little I came to know.
As the time passed,
I learned lot about you.

Your story made me cry,
At the same time it inspired me,
You are the true inspiration for all those,
Who at one point think of giving up.

You fought for your dreams
You stood up for dreams of your members,
You kept fighting instead of so much hate,
You taught me how to be strong in any situation.

Instead of so much struggle
You stood up like a mountain.
You let yourself flow like a river
And fly like a bird.

The more I learn about you,
The more you inspire me.
You are a best leader,
You are a best friend any person would be blessed to have,
You are best supporter a friend can get
In one word you are just perfect.

Thank you for being born,
Thank you for inspiring me
Happy birthday Kim Namjoon
May you get everything you want in your life.....

LOVE YOURSELF

I was having battle with myself.
I hated myself that,
i cannot walk to the place I want to,
People hated me,
Thinking me as a misfortune,
I lied to myself thinking,
I am not born to be loved.

But what if I choose other way,
so that others should love me.
I will be happy if,
I become reason for someone's smile.
And I promise
I will be the best man,
Who will do everything for others.

But I know no matter what I do,
No Matter how much I do,
They will never love me.

Today I promise myself,
Before making others love me,
I will love myself,
I will cheer myself.

No matter what happen,
I will never stop believing myself.
Everything makes me realise that,
If you want others to accept you,
Others to believe in you,
Others to love you.

Then first start to believe in yourself,
Start to accept yourself in everyway,
And one thing that can change everything
That is LOVE YOURSELF.

INSPIRED BY BTS

FIRST LOVE

She was young,
Too young to fall in love.
But when she met him,
Nothing can be done,
As she was already in love with him.

They started to talk for long hours,
Forgetting day and night.
He made her feel like princess,
She was the happiest,
While she was with him.

Everytime they meet,
Heavy rain used to welcome them.
They had a very special spot to meet.
She can't stop smiling,
She can't stop starring his face,
Whenever they are together.

Suddenly one day everything changed,
They hardly use to meet.
They were so close yet to far.
There communications became less,
And time for her tears started.

She tried hard to meet him,
She tried hard to talk to him.
She cried till her tears dried,
She stood near his gate
To just get one glance of him.

She stopped looking for him.
She started to focus on her studies,
But still he never left her mind and heart.
She studied hard to achieve something,
She achieved her dream.

Sitting in her dream place,
She called him,
She asked him , knowing his answer,
MARRY ME,
He replied, I AM ALREADY MARRIED.

She lost everything,
He was her real dream,
He lied to her,
Her first love is gone,
And she is still living,
With memories of her FIRST LOVE

LIES

I started to lie,
I lied to everyone including myself,
I lied to make myself satisfied,
I lied to myself to make myself happy.

I lied about having loyal friends,
I lied about having best life,
I lied about being successful,
I lied about being handful.

I lied about having someone to love and to be loved,
I lied about having someone who cared,
I lied about having someone to hug,
When I cried,
I lied about having someone to lean,

I lied that I am not alone
I lied that they support me,
I lied that I am always happy,
I lied that I don't cry.

Caught in my own lies,
I don't know how to say truth anymore,
I don't know how to except the truth,
I don't how to make myself happy anymore......

DEATH

It's a big reality of life,
From which nobody can escape,
Death makes you peaceful,
It's a best thing which can,
Stop all your pains and suffering,

Death comes and go,
Taking away all your pain and sorrows,
It takes away everything you want to run from.
The most peaceful time I have,
Is when I sleep.

Sleep means being half dead,
Dead but with living body,
I wish death should come to me,
And hug me tightly.

I wish it to come,
And take away all my pains and sorrow,
Every moment I wait,
I wait for peace.

There is nothing as beautiful as death,
There is nothing as peaceful as death,
There is nothing as calm as death,
There is as quite as death.........

BEST FRIENDS

Once I was walking alone,
Somebody crossed my path,
We both turned to each other,
My heart said I know these person,
Her eyes said the same,
We both hesitated to ask,
We both turned back and walked away.

I reached my home,
Burt she never left my mind,
She kept on popping into my head out of nowhere,
Suddenly my mind travel back,
And flashback started.

Big class, lots of students
Gossiping, shouting and laughing,
Suddenly a person walked through the door,
Same person who crossed my path,
She was staring at me,
With a gentle smile on her face.
Then suddenly I came back to realty,
Tears started to fall,
I can feel lump on my throat,

How could I forget her,
I missed her,
I missed her to the death,
She stood by my side,
When I needed someone,
I longed for her,
And now I lost her again.

I ran and went back to same place,
Were we crossed each other's path,
She was standing there,
With her signature smile.

I asked her do we know each other ,
She said nothing,
I again asked,are you waiting for someone,
Again she was quiet,
I turned back to return,
Suddenly she hugged me from back and said,
I MISSED YOU MY BEST FRIEND

MOTIVATION

I use to cry everyday,
Thinking why I have to go through all these pain,
Why always me,
Why I am the person who always lose,
Why God hurt me all the time.

Yesterday I heard your story,
I cried More than I use to cry for myself,
Knowing my pain was nothing,
It's nothing in front of what you have gone through,
The wounds you got,
The roads you have passed.

Yours story crushed me from inside,
I learned the most important thing,
Every person think,
That there pain is much bigger,
Not knowing what others are going through,
What is there story.

If once they will explore others life,
They will come to know,
That there are people,
Who has gone through hell,
But never thought of giving up.
They are inspiration.

Your story, Your strength.
Your wounds, Your Pain.
Your tears, Your life.
You have passed through all,
Your story taught me never give up.
YOU ARE MY MOTIVATION..............

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE

You are the only one,
Who know how to make me cry,
You are the only one,
Who know how to make me smile,
You are the only one,
Who can make me Angry
You are the only one,
who runs through my veins,
You are the only one,
who lives in my Mind,Heart and Soul,
You are the only one,
Who can control me,
You are the only one,
Who can make me jealous,
You are the only one,
Who can take away my Pain,
You are the only one,
Who can make me feel safe
You are the only one,
Who can awake a sweet innocent me,
You are the only one,
Whom i can show my true side,
You are the only one,
who can make me live,
You are the only one,
FOR WHOM I CAN DIE,
Mo matter what happen,
For Me,You will be The Only One,
ALWAYS and FOREVER...........

HOPE

Yes, I dream everyday,
I dream about having happy life,
I dream about good job
I dream to have a loving life partner,
I dream about a good health,
I dream about traveling whole world,
I dream about giving all happiness to my parents,.
I dream for making my parents proud.

Yes, I see my Dreams breaking everyday
I live Life were I struggle everyday for happiness,
I struggle everyday to find one good job,
I Don't believe in true love,
I Struggle for good health everyday,
I struggle everyday to just bring one smile on my parents face,
They are never able to say that they are proud of me.

But I still Keep on seeing Those dreams,
I keep on Believing it,
I will never give up on my dreams,
No matter how much time it break,
One day I believe,
I will get my dreams fulfilled.
And These HOPE makes me keep DREAMING..................

ATTACHMENT

First time Jab we meet, 
It was like तेरी मेरी यारी सदियों पुरानी। 

Then we talked long,

It was like दिल अभी भरा नहीं। 

Then we become so attached,

Its was like तेरे बिना जिया जाए ना। 

Then someone took you away from me,

It was Like दिल मेरा तोड़ दिया उसने। 

Then we stopped talking for a while,

It was like कुछ तो खाली खाली सा है। 

Then we again started to talk,

Its was like ऐ दिल लाया है बहार। 

Now its a strong bond,

Which is Like ज़िन्दगी के साथ भी ज़िन्दगी के बाद भी।

PAIN

Just because I care for you,
Doesn't mean you can hurt me.
Just Because I look for you,
Doesn't mean that you can cheat on me.
Just because I miss you,
Doesn't mean you can ditch me.

Just because I don't show,
Doesn't mean I don't cry.
Just because I don't say,
Doesn't  mean I don't look for you.
Just because you can't see,
Doesn't mean I don't miss you.

Today you are hurting me,
One day you will come to know my pain.
Today you are cheating on me,
One day you be alone.
Today you are not feeling any thing for me,
One day you are going to miss me..........

WAITING

Passing through different roads,
Passing through lots of hurdles,
I started to fight with all difficulty alone.

Suddenly one day everything changed,
When you walked into my life,
Now walking alone makes me weak and sad.

Now at the end of the day daily,
I keep on waiting for you,
Yes, its true that I never waited for anyone.

It feels good while walking with you,
It feels good while laughing with you,
I wish these time never ends.

I thought nothing could affect me,
But after meeting you, I realize,
That you can affect me  somehow.

Seeing you smiling for someone else,
Seeing someone else in your thought,
Made me realized, I am affected.

I don't know what is these,
Its just a friendship or something else,
I just want to know what you feel.

It's a request don't leave ever,
If you leave I will be alone again,
But still when day will end,
I will turn back to see whether you are there,
Or its just me.

A REAL LIFE TO MANKIND

Desperation of Mind, 
It flagged to different corners,
sensations of heart,
It runs through mad to normal.
I yet to learn,
Grow , like and groom,
I'm yet a kid,
To fly swing the tune.
I do, I did and will,
an addition to my life's reel,
I have new hope to dream,
with anew target and zeal.
yes, yet am a crazy bee,
Fly through winds and swing between tree.
I am a road with path unknown,
but still again I wanna be free.
I don't know what am I,
I don't try to know others,
Just a swag of life to be famed
with flying colours and feathers.
May lord see the sad - happy me,
May I bless and you through his knee.
May we be kid with love and find,
A real life to mankind

GIRL

She came to the world

But she is not accepted by anyone.

Her family avoids her

because she is a girl.

She says nothing,

But she is hurting from inside,

She only wanted to be loved,

Loved like her brother.

She does everything,

She keeps everyone happy,

She becomes son to her parents

She cares for everyone.

Instead of all hurts

Instead of all pain 

Instead of all sacrifices

She only want acceptance and love..............

DREAMS

Giving up on dreams is painful,

Sometimes you have to give up DREAMS,

To make others happy........

Sometime you have to give up your DREAMS,

Just because of society.......

Sometimes you have to give up your DREAMS,

Because of you Best Friend....

But painful is when,

Your most lovable person ask you to give up your DREAMS..........

More Painful is when,

Your family your Parents ask you to give up your Dreams.........

But i don't Want to give up on my DREAMS,

I want to live my DREAMS..........

I want fly high with my DREAMS.......

JUST WAITING TO SEE MY DREAMS GETTING FULFILLED...........